As expected...aku demam..yg tak best tu demam aku menjangkit kat baby...nasib baik dia kena selsema je...nampak takde la demam..ubat pun aku dh kasik tadi..ni dia tgh tido kat bawah tu..penangan ubat selsema la tu. Incik suami ngan pais dh gerak balik sban ptg tadi..aku,kak ana ngan baby tak ikut sbb diorg nak singgah site kat nilai dulu..kang lama kat situ takut baby meragam lak.

Hmmm..aku ni tingtong sikit arinih..dengan demam nye lagik..baby lak selsema..agak sedih bila look back to those days in 2010..sad to leave 2010..actually tahun ni aku rasa tahun aku murah rezeki in job searching..apa taknye..bulan jan aku masuk Digi, then bulan Feb aku join Hong Leong pastu bulan march aku join Fedex lak..all big companies..Bulan 4 paling best...aku joint GOVT..hehehe...jgn salah paham..aku bukan job hopper okeh..Digi tu aku blah sbb kena keje shift walaupun at first aku dijanjikan NORMAL HOURS. mane leh aku keje shift..so blah la ku dr situ walaupun aku dah passed all the 3 exams that compulsory utk join DIGI tu. Pastu aku join Hong Leong Bank as a Credit Control Officer..adeh ni lagik leceh..dah la contract..aku lak tak bape minat ngan figure2 and target based income. tapi aku harung gak la..dah takde keje kan?heheh..Nasib masih menyebelahi aku..aku dipanggil lak join Fedex as Customer Service Invoicing Officer, kira handle complaint regarding payment la...waaaa aku sgt teruja...keje normal hours and absolutely my line..aku mmg sgt suka Cusomer service line...kenapa? nanti2 aku citer okeh..so bekerjalah aku kat situ dgn tenang..geng2 best..tempat best..maklom le International company..banefits pun superb...gaji toksah cakap la..mmg yg TERTINGGI pernah aku dapat dlm employment history aku. Tengah training, blm pun on floor aku dapat pulak surat panggilan SPA...WAAAA sangat2 tak sangka dm umur yg dh nak senja nih dapat gak panggilan..aku sangat2 bersyukur..terus dengan berat hati aku tender resignation..Miss Yee Han (my Regional Manager) sgt baik..so aku rasa sgt guilty nak tgglkan Fedex..same feeling i had to leave Reader's Digest on Sept 2009. Mr jusri was the best boss i ever had..but what to do...life goes on kan..aku mmg sgt2 looking forward utk keje govt. Bila dh dapat rasa mcm Golden Dream Come true la...hehehe..dan yg paling best is dapatpun kat PJ..quite near to my house (walaupun jem mcm harammmmmm)..dpt kengkawan best kat sini..dapat best friend (i lap u very strong my best friend)..aku kongsi mcm2 dgn dia. Tambahan lately aku selalu kesedihan..dialah jadik pemujuk aku..pendengar masalah aku..bagi aku semangat..(sobsobsob)..she is like a sister that i never had.

Tu pasal keje..pasal my life...hmmm..nothing interesting selain kena TIKAM BELAKANG oleh few people..sangat2 sedih, sangat2 sakit..actually I'm not surprised, not everything lasts. I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track..takpela as long as hidup aku ngan family aku aman dah la..aku tak kacau idup org. lantaklah org nak buat apa pun..but takleh nak tipu..sakit teramat sangat..bak kata incik suami..dia tak sanggup tgk aku sedih sepanjang masa. its ok bang..its life..kalau kita tak PIJAK org, org akan PIJAK kita..sbb tu kita selalu kena PIJAK bang..sbb kita TAK PERNAH pijak org. itulah sebuah kehidupan..At the end of the day when i crawl into bed and all the lights go out my thoughts can finally rise to the surface. Ya I'm a little bruised, slightly broken, and permanently scarred but I'm still here aren't I? I'm still fighting, I'm still waking up everyday to go through it all over again. This life may be hard as hell but it's still a gift and I'm going to live every moment of it...yg penting abang dan baby sentiasa besides me..ayah, mak, ijam and amir  close to me..thats all i need. Mmg peristiwa ni bagi scar yg sangat dalam pada kehidupan aku. kalau blh mmg aku taknak cakap lagi pasal nih. but when i looked back..this is the most hurting part of my life. Takpela..aku tgk hidup MEREKA pun semakin bahagia, hidup semakin HAPPENING..maybe sbb tu aku DIBUANG macam KAIN BURUK..dah tak ada nilai sbb dah tak berguna lagik pada mereka.  takpe..alhamdulillah...aku dipilih ALLAH utk menempuh dugaan nih utk sebuah pengalaman yang paling berharga. Utk aku balas setiap perbuatan mereka TIDAK SEKALI..

Yes, its 1 day left to let go 2010,

• Thanks to those who HATED me, they made me a stronger person
• Thanks to those who LOVED me, they made my heart bigger
• Thanks to those who were WORRIED about me, they let me know that they actually cared
• Thanks to those who LEFT me, they made me realize that nothing lasts forever
• Thanks to those who ENTERED my life, they made me who i am today

My heartbeat..

My life

My shoulders to cry on

My everything